Angel Time


Although I am the all-time queen of hating change, sometimes change is exactly what we need in our lives in order to put things back into perspective.

In a world filled with so much heart ache, suffering and selfishness, the daily routine of work, and more work can burn you out to say the least.

Me, well I got to that point where I was and am totally burnt out, to the point that the fight within me, just had no strength left behind it to keep battling, it was a matter of sink and drown as the undertow pulled me deeper into it, or time to move forwards.

One very tired drained and emotionally out of whack angel, has found herself finally finished with life on the coast line, the coast is the heart of where people find themselves when they have nowhere else to go, under the glamor, the bikinis and the stink of sunscreen is a very dark and isolated world, it’s the world of heart ache, the world that nobody talks about as they cover it up with the glamor of hot young chicks flopping their boobs out and buts as they flaunt their barbie arses around, with their perfect boyfriends who have the perfect tan, and the complete abs to match.

Yet hiding behind those abs, is the many people who have found themselves in very soul of the sands that will pull them into them, and continue to make their struggle to live each day a struggle that is one even I am lost for words to explain.

The coast, the uterus of mental health issues, the womb of drug and alcohol addictions, and sadly the sunscreen and the boobs will never mask the unspoken truth of the hardship that those who are stuck in the sands that sink live each and every day.

There was a time where I thought I would never want to leave the water, a time it made me feel at ease, at peace, yet the one place I found solitude in for so many years, turned out to be the same place that would show me just how hot the sands of hell are.

I am at a loss for words when it comes to the things I have learned especially over the past year, in fact to think of them all is like a fucking surreal head spin.

What I do know, and can say, is that finally that head spin has stopped, as I take a breath of fresh air, literally, and look out my window, to see the green outside, the world from a different view, and sigh, as I take some time out for me to re catch my breath and find my place, some time off work, some time to simply breath.

Time to refined angel.

 

About Angel O'Fire

New Zealand born, this kiwi chick took flight to live in the great land down under in Queensland Australia in 1988. I am clumsy at times not known for my tact and or grace, straight to the point, and somewhat impatient, I have come to accept that what is in this life simply is. Far from religious, I do not believe in a divine god per say that will come down and save the world, although I accept each to their own when it comes to their views and beliefs of what religion is or should be. I consider myself to be my own worst critic as I tend to strive for best, and have a tendency to push myself physically and emotionally beyond my limits. Still naive at times, still hoping to see the good rather than the bad in people, this has not been one of the qualities that I can say I am fond of, as it has come to burn me time after time over the years. I am a strong believer in Karma, as I do believe in what we put out is what we do get in return, good bad or indifferent. With a tendency to stand my ground when it comes to opinions, as we all have one, there is no right nor wrong, it is a perspective, a view point on how we view a subject. Zero tolerance for others who are self-riotous, I have no interest in people who claim to have never done any wrong in their lives, and who judge others, prior to walking in those they cast judgement upon’s shoes. I am just your average girl who is trying to make my way through life as it is. I am a mother, lover, friend, partner, co-worker, manager, coach, and referee, a Jill of all trades. A firm believer that ‘ignorance is not bliss’ nor is ‘ignorance’ and excuse to be an arsehole in the world we live in today, those who continue to use the ‘ignorance is bliss’ rule are plainly arrogant and uneducated. I love the water, beach surf and sand, the water is where I seem to find myself when I need to take 5 mins out of life's hectic cycle. I figure that each to their own, as it takes all kinds of people to make the world go round. I believe that life is not learnt out of a text book, and often wonder why we teach our lessons from one to our growing generations. Although I can be a surprising wealth of knowledge I find it amazing how a person can actually no so much about nothing, yet be a master of the topic. I am that girl who cuts her jeans into shorts because she got hot, am not one to enjoy shopping, in fact I hate the entire nightmare of going shopping and it has me fkd how so many chicks say 'lets make a day of it' and love bouncing from shop to shop looking at things that are well pointless. All in all that is me so hello world I'm Angel.
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One Response to Angel Time

  1. Sometimes Angel thats all we need take time to do.. as we find that peace within the quiet of our being and take in that breath. One breath at a time… One Day at a time..
    ~Dreamwalker

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